I realized that I am not the best at managing my time. When it comes to work projects I get a gold star. When I comes to following through on a promise I pass with flying colors.
But when it comes to me time, my personal stuff, I fail. I stink. No gold star for me.
I am not sure why. Because my stuff like my friends, my blog, my facebook, my career, my diet are all very important to me. But I tend to let myself get completely overwhelmed with being busy and all of that personal stuff just falls by the wayside.
I have not posted in a month, I have not replied to any of my messages on the facebook in weeks, I have gained 8 pounds of the nearly 25 that I lost on weight watchers back. I have not hung out with my girlfriends on our date night (Wednesdays) in three weeks. And its not that I don't want to do those things but I haven't.
I think that I need to work on being more selfish. I am too generous with my time. I just give it away like it's an endless box of Kleenex. Pulling out moments of time one right after the other effortlessly like the box will never run out. But what happens when I need a Kleenex? What happens when I need one of my own Kleenexes and my box is empty?
It's nobodies fault but my own. I can get to a WW meeting and pick up the food journal any day any time. I can catch up on facebook messages in the morning before I go to work. I can write a post in a word document on my lunch break and then upload it at home when I am off work. I can make sure that I don't schedule myself for anything else on Wednesday nights except for date night. I just need to do it.
I can. I know I can. It will just take me managing my time better.
4 comments:
Don't be so hard on yourself. Things like Facebook and blogging just make life more complicated. Although I love them, they are just two more demands on time we could be spending talking to friends in person or volunteering or whatever. It's hard to keep all the plates spinning! And we'll all still be here when you're not around - so try not to feel so pressured to manage your time well - just make sure you're enjoying it. :)
I know you're right. I do get way too hard on myself (she said hard on :) Too many plates spinning indeed. I think that the things like the blog and the facebook get forgotten when I am enjoying my free time.
Hannah, it is an ongoing project, this whole being a good human sort of stuff. Go day by day and don't get too reactive to a bad patch. Just do the best you can. Honestly, those people to whom you mean something will always understand.
You do have to be mindful that you are looking after you in the thick of it all. I just spent the last 6 weeks being at everyone's beck and call and finally took control again. Not the first time, not the last. But I always work at it.
Linda--
Thank you for your wisdom. It is helpful to read. :)
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